My new swimming pool

I ordered this swimming pool and it will be here in 2 days!

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It’s 32 feet long, 16 feet wide and almost 5 feet deep. I want to do laps in it and get the rest of this weight off. Preparing the ground for it is a major PITA! But it’ll be worth it. This is just some of the sage brush I’ve had to dig out. There’s still a lot more.

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Today I went to Lowes to get the materials I need to prepare the ground. I’ve already been digging the ground up to make it level. Driving home was hilarious! I had cement pavers in the back along with a rake, a tamper, a 6 foot long leveler, insulation board and a bunch of groceries. The insulation board is 8 feet long and I could only fit 3 of the 15 or so I will need. Part of them were resting on my head for the 1 hour drive home.

I will also be building a deck around at least half of it. I have no clue how to do this but I’ve been watching youtube videos on how to do it. I figure if a man can do it, so can I. And MAYBE I’ll build a big enough deck to make a little bedroom attached to it. I could just roll out of bed and go for my morning swim and then at night before I go to bed just jump in the bed and swim to bed. Or MAYBE I should just get one of these and call it my waterbed!



Whooaa I can see!

Yesterday I had my first eye exam in 14 years. I was already wearing cheap ass walmart reading glasses because back then I was told it was all I needed. Well 1.0 over 14 years turned into 2.75 which I was up to now needing. Yesterdays exam revealed that I still needed that 2,75 strength but it also revealed that I can’t see shit at a distance.

Well now I have glasses, 2 pairs. Had no idea they were so expensive! On one pair I had the bifocals lifted higher on the lens for the gun range so I could site everything in easier. Tues. I shoot again so I’ll see how it goes.

Thigh bone connected to my mouth bone.

I named this blog what I did because of the work that needs to be done in order for me to get my smile back. Besides the facial reconstruction as I’m calling it, I will be having surgery soon in Los Angeles with an oral surgeon that needs to take bone from my thigh and attach it to my mouth. It’s a 10 day stay in the hospital for that surgery. I wish I could have the plastic surgeon be in that operating room and as soon as the oral surgeon is finished, the plastic surgeon would take over. Then I could sleep for those 10 days and wake up fixed! That would be really sweet!

It can’t happen of course but it’s a nice thought. I don’t know how long that mouth surgery takes to do yet but I do know the plastic surgeon will be working on my face for 6 1/2 hours. I don’t care how long any of it takes, I’m just grateful that it will BE done.

Plastic Surgery, I’m doing it.

My face isn’t aligned right after that wreck. I will be doing plastic surgery this year to have it fixed. I prefer to call it reconstruction surgery since he will make it right. I was talking to a 22 year today and when I said I was going under the knife to make my face right he said, “But you look beautiful.” I am sending his mother flowers on Mother’s Day and thanking her for raising such a nice young man. I’ve never met his mother but she deserves them.

I’ve done a few years of research on what needs to be done to my face. I wanted the right surgeon to do it. And I’ve found him. I’m really excited and his words to me in our conversation made me want to fly to him that day and have it done. I would have if I could have but this weight has to be gone first. I don’t want him working on a fat face.

Just really excited about all of this.

Still working it

Another 2 pounds gone since the other day! Yayy me! Yeah it’s coming off in small amounts right now but it’s also never coming back. So I’m good with it.

I started hanging up printed pictures of my “before” pictures to remind me when my whole body is burning and shaking from working out, WHY I’m doing it. I’m taking my life back. Inside, I feel like the old me is dying to come out, but as soon as I see a mirror or a reflection of myself in a store window, which I really try to avoid at all costs right now, the old me kind of slithers away again. It’s disheartening.

I still have items listed on ebay if you know anyone interested in soap or candle supplies and packaging and other stuff as well.

I’m not giving up on getting the money together for this. I want ME back and I’m determined to get her.

ebay listings…are you a woman’s size 10 and looking for some really cute ankle boots? Never worn! Size 10. Only 8 bucks.


This is my year….

I’m on a roll here! I weighed myself 2 days ago and I’ve lost 10 pounds! I’m not giving up. I actually have made a list of all of the steps, in detail, of what I need to do to get my smile back. There’s a lot but I’m finally ready mentally for that challenge.  I’ve been sticking to my list and I’m not letting up. It feels good to check off each little accomplishment. I even found a motivational poster to hang in my workshop. about I just call it my new gym.


Now I know this isn’t breaking news but I made a snack last night that was sooo delish!! I’ve tried many plain greek yogurts and so far this is my favorite. It’s thick and creamy and not bitter at all. I love using it as a sour cream too. But last night I threw in a Cutie tangerine and it was ohh soo good! Tonight I’ll try it with a green apple.

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Now that I have everything organized from my workshop/new gym, I started listing on ebay. I always loved making soaps but now I don’t have time for it. I have a lot of supplies and packaging to sell that I’ve never used. Some of the supplies and packaging works for candle makers as well. I will be listing weekly all kinds of different things, not just soap and candle making supplies. If you know anyone interested, please send them this link…

My exercise equipment

I am building an outside gym as I mentioned earlier. I have 10 acres and I don’t have the patience to drive 60 miles each way to the closest gym. Once my car gets on the highway it is programmed to go shopping and I need to do more than walk carrying bags out of different stores.

So here is what I have so far…


Every time I walk out the door I have to jump through these tires 10 times.


My land is dirt and sand. I pour some of it in this wheelbarrow and push it, trying to run faster each time. Can you hear the Rocky Balboa theme song yet?

I have this new bike too and was told by my future surgeon to find hills and ride. I have found a few and I’m determined to get to the top of those damn hills! I’m glad this bike has gears at least. Notice no basket. I’m not playing around here!


I also have these that love to go for walks….

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I have a workshop that is cleaned out now. I have been bringing in the equipment that needs to be indoors.

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Nobody can hear me screaming in there. It helps to have no neighbors. This is what I have so far…


And that’s it so far. I want to get a boxing bag. Is it wrong of me to want to put a particular face on that bag?

I wonder if planting 90 trees counts, especially the way I’ll be watering them…

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I have to push this pipe 3 feet into the ground for a deep root watering. For 90 trees. If all goes well, I will have this…

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Grow into this…

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If anyone has any ideas on more outside equipment that I can make, Rocky Balboa style, please let me know. I’d really appreciate it!